I've noticed that every time i came close to love i backup and give up? i don't know whats gotten in to me. i make it real but i can never hold on? there's something inside of me that pulls the red light when everything seems to be going so well.

i don't wanna be like some guys who get girls like touch' and go. I'm no player. all that you guys think i am. I don't even know why i bother getting in to a relationship cause in the end most of them will become your enemies.

The closest point of friends become the worst mistake of your life?

Is this just hormones? is it what controls us to what is worth to do? with no consequence and fear of what will happen. I estimate this horrid topic to be floccinaucinihilipilificatious.

I hate birthdays, Dreams and holidays. although its inevitable but what can we really do? its just another excuse to celebrate. celebrate what? the fact that we actually came in to this world for what reason?


For this year my theme will be "Chapter Battery"


Just like a battery everything seems to be so perfect in the beginning and what happens when the battery wears out? and what if its not rechargeable? for how long can an unknown model battery last? Am I AAA or just an A or maybe a C? who knows.

Its life and love just verbs ? what happens when inspiration can't get in to you. Ever since this year began i haven't wrote one song. I have no inspiration to write. I wasted enough time dwelling in the past. I'm leaving most all behind.

I'm not saying I'm not appreciative of my past. heck yeah i have awesome friends and a not too bad family. I thank god for them. But when it comes to my own selfish thoughts this battery is draining to nothing.