Eventually everything will fall apart,
Even the strongest bond and love between family,
Eventually you'll realise that no one has a heart,
Even if you have to wait a lifetime to see.



I look back at the time when you were happy. All the times you smiled in your pictures. The sparkle in your eyes, the sign of true happiness.

now your all grumpy, all sad and miserable. There's no sparkle, not even a smile in your pictures.

So whats happened between now and then?

I'll tell you,

Me.

but if i have to suffer, I'll do it for you. After all, i made you suffer 16 years and 8 months in your Womb. I'll take the pressure, pain and silence. After all i owe you that much.

The nightmares are breaking into my skull again. Its been two days with no sleep and when i finally was able to get some rest they come an haunt me again. Amanda you know which nightmares i'm talking abut right? haihh.. lord save me from myself.

Everywhere i turn i hurt someone but there's nothing i can say to change the things I've done. I've done everything within my power to try and hide the shame and i pray someone or something someday will come and heal the pain. Gravity wants to bring me down face down cause its always functioning against me. I need a new sunrise cause I'm sick of another cliche' sunset. If i could fly away, i won't turn back no more.

How i would die for yesterday. Just to turn back time this once.. and stop what just happened. Screw on some bolts and hammer nails through my skin and make me robot.

But i know i can't turn back cause yesterday is gone.

Merdeka!!~

look familiar perfection students?

yes it was me who change all the wallpapers to this.

every single computer! muahahhaha. i was bored. one day you'll see. the ketupat people are out there.




When we don't have computers we prefer jakooning kao kao


And then there's school where we become professional models


and some who are just plain hungry.



so I've written a few more songs lately and mom says next year is album year. So hope you guys buy, rip and pass it on to as many people as you want! support your local music industry!

so if you guys have an idea for a good album name, post in in the cbox.

Mia and I at AYA Unplugged :) Enjoy

Thats right xD my skateboard is an ear of corn! Awesome right xD copyrighted design by me now. xP



So i went to " A Shameless Cover Night - Raza Salleh, Mia Palencia, Zalila Lee and Melina Williams(Tempered Mental)

Its where these four amazing indie artist combine and do a show of only covers. Apart from doing their original work they're doing covers from the 90's.

heres a video of their encore performance followed by a standing ovation. I have to say its the best show i've been to since last years Kl sing song ( Switchfoot Concert Not Counted )


so guys I'll be gone for the next two weeks or more until hols cause i'm having trials next week and i'm gonna hardcore study so if anything text me or call. Call better cause i dont have credit to reply. So hope you guys have fun without me and wish you guys the best for any exams you guys are headed for.


For the PMR and SPM students i wish you guys the best and i hope you guys score with Rocket blasting A's straight towards the sun!

Good Night people!,

Christian